Another Peon trying to push the rock |
Friday, February 21, 2003
Hello All... please update your website for my blog i have now moved to here. RJ has taken me into the Rijah regime and I know sit alongside the other four fathers of bloggers that I first knew and read about. Thank you RJ and thank you Tripod... no more pop ups people! Free at last, free at last, thank God almighty I'm free at last.
Ok so today is another day and yet it's not any different. I'm beginning to realize that it's a really selfish world we live in. Take for example our president, he's doing his job insuring national security. But a statement that got me was that, he says protests will not deter his actions in Iraq or against terrorism and isn't democracy great that protesters can state their opinion freely. Both are valid statements but tell me this. If millions of people all over the world don't want to go to war than shouldn't that voice be heard? How could you fight a war when no one supports you. I shouldn't say no one but let's say half don't. I don't understand that's maybe why I'm not in politics. I believe that you fight for survival and for life but I guess that's ironice because war is a destruction of life where everyone loses and families suffer. Ideals and beliefs have riddled this world with death and destruction just because someone would rather be right than to accept each other. Selfishness plagues us all, no matter how little it is from wanting more candy to wanting more money to just wanting more. So this goes into our own little world of business ethics and the peonic world. Tell me this someone, from peon to peon only please higher ups need not respond, how is it that hard work is masqeraded by the greed of another. Like I hear, to get up the ladder you have to step on some people to get there. No I don't know what it means when our costs have change or our discounts are lower, I don't care, I actually do know what it means, it means more money but I'm not going to announce that to the world that I made more money and then turn my back and say, look at me I have bills to pay so I need to make more money. Can we hold a class "How to be a peon?" or "Introduction to peonic life: a study of being stepped on and belittled." I have bills to pay too. We all do and in this day and age, we never have enough to pay them off. We can ask the rich but they're a little busy buying $1,000,000,000,000 homes and luxuries that I couldn't afford in a two lifetimes. Ok venting over... complain all I want, I'm blessed with a job and money. Simple answer right. Yah those are always the hardest to follow. Thursday, February 20, 2003
Yesterday was Jonward's birthday and we ate out at Macaroni Grill. It was a good lunch. Talked about almost anything, mainly about work and how we live the daily grind. I also finally learned the rules and techniques to the elusive rubik's cube. That damn thing plagued me when I was younger and it still haunts me today. I just used to take off the stickers and rearrange them that way. It involves some patience to do it but Jonward has it down to an artform. Like those geniuses you see in the movies, the masterminds about to take over the world like Pinky and the brain. It's my cousin's birthday today so happy birthday to him and later this week it's my birthday. Weird but I realize when people ask me what I want for my birthday, I'm like "I don't know, I want stuff none of us can afford." Birthdays come and go nowadays. It used to be a much more festive event back in the day. There was a buildup to the day itself, running around trying to find out what gifts you're going to get and getting all ready for the party coming up. I like just the melo scene now. Just friends, birthday greetings from people you haven't heard from in awhile and just a nice good relaxing day. Since when did I grow up. I really don't know. Tuesday, February 18, 2003
Back to the daily grind. I found myself waking up early today. I don't know why. I woke up right when my alarm went off. I tried to snooze some more but couldn't. I usually bang on the alarm like I was killing a spider or something and go right back to sleep. Not excited to go to work or wake up so I just can't figure out why I wanted to get up and get ready. Must be a full moon or something today. Well, I'm trying to keep a regular blog going so if you like what you're reading you could see me on the infamous or famous rijah.com. Yes you heard me I've been asked by the guru of blogging and websites Mr. Rijah himself if I would like to move hosts. It's an honor actually to move among the prestigious rijah clan. Hopefully with this move I'll do something with my website and make a new page with links and pictures and maybe an archive. I know I messed up the directories somewhere so that's why I can't get into my archives. Oh well, it's lunchtime and it's only Tuesday. The workdays always go by slow compared to the blur of the weekend. Monday, February 17, 2003
So you wonder about the title maybe? maybe not because you didn't even notice the change. But it's from a myth I believe about a guy who spends eternity pushing this rock uphill never to get to the top. In the end this man grows to love his rock he pushes. I don't love my rock that I'm pushing. What I do love is that today is a holiday and I'm going to spend it relaxing and hanging out. There's still rehearsal tonight for PCN but that's at 10 and I do enjoy those. Teaching, being able to do something creative, and working with people on stage is what I miss or just being behind a camera or at an editing machine that's something else I'm striving for. So I'm up early and I can't sleep anymore. The monotony of waking up early everyday has just set in on my brain and so I just continue to wake up at 730 even on weekends. You know something, I realize that the littlest things annoy people but when we really sit to think about it, it just doesn't make any sense to get mad or feel threatened, we are a proud type of specie and that's what always kicks my arse. Too much pride. Gotta find a way to get rid of it because when it comes to productions you have to swallow all that for the show. it must go on you know. Happy President's Day! Friday, February 14, 2003
It's Friday and I've noticed that blogging has been on the rise this week. Why you may ask because of certain issues at the trabaho. I've looked over the situation and talked about with friends and one thing always seems to come up. It's the idea that we're all worth more than that. We're all worth more than that manager who dictates work rather than works with you, we're worth more than that almighty dollar at the end of the day because how much is that dollar worth if the world goes to war. You may say that's business deal with it. But how can it just be business when you see your coworkers 8 hours of the day everyday and probably your family or friends 2-4 hours of that day. These are the people you spend a lot of time with, personal and business. So don't tell me you can't mix business and personal life because in sales isn't that how create relationships and create customer loyalty. You talk about pricing and the product but the other 2 minutes the last two minutes of the conversation you talk about how the weather is or how the other person's day is, are you married? Personal questions in a business environment. Well that's just getting to know your customers. I've heard that before, it's fake then. It's a fake question and you'll probably receive a fake answer in return. Funny how the business world works huh. RJ said I sounded like him the other day... and if I sound bitter, I am to an extent. I understand that life is short and I gotta work hard to do what I want to do in my life. I'm learning. Luckily my family, gf, and friends are solid people who understand the frustrations of paying your dues. I ask why should I pay my dues when I already paid $60k for my college education or was $80k for 4 years. Was that all in vain? We shall see... Thursday, February 13, 2003
Another day another dollar they say. But is it worth it. You work 8 hours out of the day just to be scrutinized whether or not you really worked that 8 hours. I believe some people do work continuously 8 hours like construction workers, peons of the corporate monster, and other who are not in a position to goof around. So why is that we do this. To pay the bills, to make more money to do what you want later, maybe just because we'd just get bored staying at home all day. It's kinda like when you go on vacation from school but for some reason you get bored and you can't wait to get back. Well, that's how I felt during college. It's a sick cycle. Not really sick but just a monotonous wheel turning over and over kinda like those rims that can spin without the car actually moving. It's going nowhere. Been really cynical lately and trying not to let the work life get me down. On some occassions it's fun and just all laughs and other occassions it's like how can you deal with people. PCN has started up again for SCU and I'm actually having more fun this year than last. There's a certain freedom this year and the basic, let's get the job done and everyone will be happy attitude. No drama please and save the excuses for your professor or your parents type of approach that is making this experience a lot more fun than past years. It doesn't beat being on stage and hearing an audience laugh at your acting or a joke you say, but it sure feels great inside knowing you're accomplishing something and passing on a tradition that deserves all the respect and love it should get. Now that's preserving culture I think. You have fun, you teach and you learn in the process. Wednesday, February 12, 2003
Hello one and all... you know something I really get irritated when people try to micromanage. I mean give me a break, do you really have to stand there everyday prying into everyone's work asking every miniscule detail of what they're doing for the DAY. It's like having you're mom constantly tell you to brush your teeth after you've already brushed your teeth. High and mighty people with a title take that title and try to be mr. big. Don't make me feel small when I work, it doesn't improve efficiency or productivity it just pisses your employees off. You don't need to know everything, once a week is cool once every three days is fine, but if you stand next to my cube and ask me again who did I call or who am I going to call or what is on my plate when we sat through the same meetings and we need to help the bottom line, I'm going to sit there and crack jokes and say "my plate's empty because I'm sitting here trying to explain what I'm going to do for the next 8 hours... and get your nose out of different departments. If you, out there, micromanage then seriously try to mix up your management skills because some people think it's a positive way of checking up on your employees and others well they take it the wrong way. There's no need to belittle a peon already in the company because when the peons rise and take over, your transparent ways will be revealed. Why teach business ethics when half of the world is unethical and immoral. Change the wheel, teach business micromanagement and belittlement of your employees or Greed 101 that's better than trying to waste dollars on classes that are as fantastic as LOTR or Harry Potter. Rainy days and bad motherF--- drivers who cause traffic always irritate me. hahaha... phew... |